I have classes minimum 4- 6 hours per day. I have to work at least 8 hours any week day I don’t have class and weekend. I haven’t had a full sleep in two nights ( 4-5 hours a night I guess) and I’m out of food in the fridge and the food I have I don’t even have time to cook it. I haven’t stepped out of this state of Indiana since the beginning of the sem and I haven’t had a real conversation with someone for couple days now. And when i actually do I don’t know how to start, I don’t know how to expose my true feelings to make them understand me and I’m too egotistic to tell them that I fucking need a real conversation so sit and listen to me despite your god damn work.
All I could think of recently is work. What should I work now? what should I work for tomorrow? what should I work for next semester ? what should I work for the summer? I feel like I’m a machine just function as programed. but worse, without fuel ( food, sleep and real connection)
Not to mention some people makes me feel like a pariah when I actually try to reach out to them. I haven’t had this feeling for a while. But today I’m reminded. Thanks for the craps friends, I’m fucking grateful.
now I have half the book to read for my 10 am class and I have been crying non stop. So you ask me what happened ? NO NOTHING FUCKING HAPPEN I cry just because I NEED TO and I call because I FUCKING NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE. IT’S A FUCKING NEED GET IT ?
Cảm ơn các bạn lớp screen writing và creative non fiction đã có response tốt đẹp khi critique bài của mình.
Thật sự đấy. Bây giờ nghĩ lại chả có gì trong ngày làm mình vui bằng những việc như thế cả. Toàn căng thẳng và buồn =))
ôm nhau trong lớp với model yêu dấu mà lòng đau như cắt vì sắp đi off-campus.
đùa chứ năm sau ai sẽ làm muse cho tôi :(((
all my senior friends are giving me details about what I am gonna be like next year, with two majors, three seminars and one minor.
Life is good friends, life is good.
nói đùa ko ăn không ngủ nhức đầu vc :((
mình còn chưa include Student Art Council,Viet Nam Youth Forum, College4vn với cả Thiệp Nhân Ái mà đã tràn 3 trang là sao /:)
I’ve got 99 problems and my inability to self motivate is causing every single one of them.
Cố lên đi 3 tuần nữa hết học kỳ rồi xong rồi lại chả có cái mẹ gì ra hồn đâu.
Nghĩ muốn khóc vì sợ. Sao chả có cái gì xong xuôi ổn thoả sao mọi thứ đều dở dang lộn xộn :((
I should be drawing every single day from now on…